Wednesday 15 August 2007

Day 76 - 24

Weigh in 14/8/2007





Last night was weigh in didn't get time to post but have lost 7lbs this week which I am really please with considering the difficulties that I had getting back to 100% abstinence. Will post a bit more in the morning.

Anita.

Monday 13 August 2007

Day 75 - 25

I finally feel like I have turned a corner, today I haven't felt at all hungry. I feel completely in control again, no thoughts of cheating. I have managed to drink about 6 litres of water and had my first shake at about 2.30 and the last two packs about an hour ago. I did some gardening yesterday, well not really gardening but planting things in pots. Our garden is small and is divided up in to two areas of decking, one outside of the conservatory and another raised area at the bottom of the garden and the bit in the middle is scottish pebbles and a few paving slab. So no grass or borders just tubs and pots which makes life really easy. It was nice to get out in the sunshine after being at work all week. The rest of the day was spent catching up with housework. After returning from holiday really didn't feel like doing anything after work all week. Matt spent all afternoon ironing whilst watching every extreme sport or bike channel he could find, I'm sure thats why he volunteers to do the ironing so that I won't have any reason to complain about him watching TV.

Not much has happened to day, just a busy day at work. This evening we went to visit M's brother and his wife with their new baby. He's now 3 months old and really gorgeous considering he doesn't know us very well he was happy to sit with both of us and chat away despite the fact he was due a feed.

Its weigh in tomorrow and I will get LLC to confirm when my hundred days are up - but I guess it will be when we have completed all the tasks in the green book.

I am trying to work out how to put photos on here hopefully will be able to do it over the next couple of days.

Feeling tired now so think it must be time for bed,so night night for know.

Anita x

Sunday 12 August 2007

Day 74 - 26

Where has the time gone - As mentioned in my last post have really struggled with updating on here but have know been out and treated myself to a laptop so no excuses anymore.

My class has been messed about a bit we seemed to have new people starting right up to week 5, I think this was because our class was so small - 4 at the start and then one couldn't carry on after a couple of weeks so down to 3 which didn't give much interaction in the classes. So although I have been doing the packs for 74 days I'm not sure when foundation will actually end for me. Last week we were doing the tasks for week 7 which seems to have gone wrong somewhere cos it should have been week 9 by my calculation - the class started on 12 June. I don't mind because having had two weeks holiday I only seem to have missed one lot of tasks from the green book and I'm trying to catch up ready for Tuesday. When I first started my plan was to follow foundation and then go straight into management regardless of how much I had left to lose, and lose the last by more conventional dieting methods but I think my thoughts on this have changed reading lots of threads on minimins.com and blogs on here and my recent experiences. I have just returned from 2 weeks holiday in France where I had a fantastic holiday but I did break abstinence. The first week was not too much of a problem I was just enjoying having the odd taste of things but keeping to the shakes and bars during the day and having a small salad with lowfat protein for my evening meal. I did have an Ice Cream one dya but I didn't have my shake and when I put on a pair of trousers to go out at the end of the first week they actually felt looser than the last time I had worn them. I think it helped that we were doing a lot of walking to the beach which involved getting over a huge sand dune (if anyone knows SW France they will know that this no easy task) and cycling every other day. One day we went for a ride using some of the cycle routes through the Landes Forest and ended up cycling 21 miles round trip. In the 2nd week however I felt less in control and seemed to be more influenced by what other people were eating and started eating at lunch time and in the evening and this usually involved bread or crackers, small amounts of cheese, the lovely french cured hams etc etc. I even succombed to croissants for breakfast on a couple of days. I don't know what went wrong and what dissappointed me the most about it was that I didn't really enjoy the things I was eating but this didn't seem to stop me. We got back late last Saturday evening and I had decided as it was one of my daughters birthday on the sunday and she had been house and cat sitting for us while we were on holiday that we would take her and her friend out for lunch and this would be my last meal and back on the packs Monday morning. This was fine had a lovely salad and lots of sparkling water, it was quite late in the afternoon so didn't need anythng else to eat later. Monday morning arrived and straight back into normal routine of taking 2 packs to work, didn't find it too difficult getting back on the packs, I wsan't particularly hungry and found the water quite easy upto 5 litres each day. At weigh in on Tuesday I had gained 4 lbs which I wasn't too upset about but I think my actual gain was nearer to 7 lbs when I weighed at home on Sunday. What I have found really dificult was to stop picking at things and towards the end of the week actually eating whole things. This was really confusing as I wasn't hungry, not particularly stressed but cross with myself for not being able to do things how I had before my holiday. I had found the whole thing really easy and that was part of my reason for deciding to eat on holiday because i thought i would be ok when i got back. After a particualrly bad day on friday when I ate a cinnamon cake a whole bag of wine gums and a cold sausage I decided to post a thread on minimins.com (back on track is my name on there) to see if anyone could give me any advice the replys were really supportive and I don't know if it was just actually writing down what I had done and therefore actually admitting it or what it was but yesterday was a completely different sort of day refocused and only had my 4 packs and about 5 litres of water and I am feeling really pleased with myself although as I write this my tummy is growling at me, I think I might have to get up and have a shake (this laptop is brilliant as hubby lays next to me sleeping I can update to my hearts content without getting moaned at for spending too much time on computer). My weight is starting to drop off and I am a bit lighter than my preholiday weight so hopefully by tuesday will show a good loss and be back in ketosis.

My plan know is to carry on in development when the time comes and lose all my weight and then do management as I don't think I am ready to do things on my own, maybe this might change again as I get back into foundation who knows! This is someting I have noticed from other peoples blogs and postings that they keep changing their minds the closer to target they get.

I think I have rambled on enough for now hope to have your comments.

Bye for now.

Anita x

Sunday 17 June 2007

Day 18 - 82

It's been ages since I seem to have been able to get on the computer to update my blog. For some reason it wont let me sign in at work to update mine but will let me leave comments on others, which is the ideal place for me to do it as computer at home is monopolised by my 13 year old daughter in the evenings.

So here goes with catch up.

Any way have been doing really well, started class last tuesday which was very small only 4 people but LLC did say she had 3 more people coming to introduction on saturday so they may start this week. Every one was really nice and really looking forward to getting in to this side of it, the weight loss is going really well I am so pleased. At weigh in I have lost 13lbs, a bit dissappointed it wasn't a whole stone but still very pleased with the results so far.

Hubby and I went out for the day on Sunday to Lulworth Cove in Dorset, we were planning on taking the walk over the cliffs to Durdle Door but it was far to hot. So we laid on the beach for a while then Matt needed food so we sat outside a cafe for an hour or so while he ate and I drank a bottle of sparkling water. Found it surprisingly easy to do as not at all hungry. We then did have a short walk to a viewing point part way up the cliff walk. So much for good intentions!!

Exercise is somewhere that I am struggling a bit - I have a frozen shoulder which is very painful a lot of the time and I'm not really sure other than walking what I could do. I really do need to get moving again as I find my muscles get really tired and heavy when i do anything even slightly strenuous. I don't know if that is a cause of LL or just my lack of exercise since the shoulder started. Used to do yoga once a week and a couple of sessions at the gym before it started.

Yesterday we went to a BBQ which was being held by a friend I used to work with. She finished with LL about a month ago and has done really well, still keeping her weight off even after a trip to go shopping in Florida with her daughter who had also done the programme with her. They both looked absolutely fantastic, infact I nearly didn't recognise her daughter. They both offered a lot of encouragement and were very inpressed with my loss so far. However there was another lady there who has lost about 5 stone with weight watchers over the last couple of years who was very negative about what I was doing and how she knows 'lots of people' who have been really ill doing LL although she couldn't actually tell me how many or what illness they had. Until then I had not heard of anyone who has had any health problems from following the programme and it made me abit angry that she couldn't see the postive effect it has had on at least two people at the event and potentially a third in the making. Apart from my shoulder I haven't felt this good in a long time.

Today my sister is coming round while Matt goes to his Taekwondo lesson and we are going to sort through all the clothes I have stashed away in the loft. Hopefully this will give me things to wear whilst losing weight as I have a load of clothes still with the labels on that I was going to lose half a stone or so to fit in to comfortably and never did. I also hope to get rid of loads of things that are already too big and winter things that I won't need next winter.

There are probably loads of things I've forgotten about over the last ten days but I think that will do and I will try and keep upto date each day.

Bye for now!

Thursday 7 June 2007

Day 8 - 92

Feeling really good again today, my family and everybody at work is being very supportive. What I am finding odd is that some people at work find it necessary to apologise because they are eating near me, I have told them that it doesn't effect me but they still seem to be very embarrased - they weren't bothered before I started this so not sure why they should be now.

I need to lose another 3-4lbs to put my weight back to my average weight over the last 4-5 years and I hope this will happen before I start my class properly on Tuesday, I will then feel that I have started from my normal weight rather than what I have put on this year since Christmas and my Nan's death when my eating seemed to get way out of control.

I have spent this evening organising menus for everyone else for the next couple of weeks so that I can create a sensible shopping list to start to show that this is not costing us anymore than the average shopping bill each week. Menus are done, shopping list done and there doesn't seem to be very much on it which is good.

I'm feeling very tired now, I still don't seem to be sleeping very well - not sure if it's the need for the toilet or some other reason but I hope it will settle down soon.

Bye for now

Day 7 - 93

Today is weigh in day looking forward to the official result, although I have weighed at home. I weighed myself at home last Thursday morning and have weighed myself this morning and it shows a 10lbs loss!! I'm amazed I never thought I would lose this much in one week, can't wait until tonight to get this confirmed.

I know I keep going on about it but I just can't get used to not being hungry, I keep drinking my water, both still and sparkling and black coffee and peppermint tea and I seem to forget about mealtimes so I am not having my packs at regular times during the day. When you diet normally you are constantly thinking about when you will eat your next allowed item of food and invariably end up eating it sooner than you planned and then spend the whole evening thinking you must be able to have something else - this plan just doesn't make you think like that. I am so focussed on consuming the quantity of water and other drinks that you need to have that I seem to forget about food altogether - It's amazing.

Weighed in at 6 pm and the official wight loss is 9lbs, this could be something to do with the litre of water I drank on the way from work to LLC.

Really pleased with the results for such little effort!

Day 6 - 94

Thankfully feeling much better today, still a bit grumbly but don't feel sick any more. I didn't have my last shake yesterday and still don't want one this morning. The peppermint tea helped with the sicky feelings.

I finally had my first shake at about 12.30, now I'm worried that I wont fit in my fourth one again today need to have a plan for this evening to make it happen.

Had quite a busy day at work, there are a few changes going on but it's good for me as I'm getting some different things to do, this stops me getting bored. Late home from work tonight and as Matt's not back from Birmingham yet need to prepare dinner for him and my youngest daughter. I am very surprised that cooking for other people doesn't seem to be bothering me, although I'm not going to let Matt know that as it will be nice to have the odd night off from thinking about ideas for dinner and then cooking it.

In order to make sure that I have my four packs today I made some crisps from a Thai Chilli pack and had a shake with them. The crisps weren't to bad although some of them were a bit soggy, I would make them again. I will have my last shake just before bed.

It's weigh in tomorrow looking forward to seeing what I've done in the first week.