Not sure where to begin (never done this blog thing before) but I guess a bit about me - I'm 43, married to Matthew for 4 1/2 years. I have 3 daughters from a previous marriage aged 21, 19 and 13. I work in a multi franchise garage as a sales administrator and I'm thinking now that the last day of the month was probably not a good day to start as it can be quite stressful - but being busy might help.
I seem to have always been on a 'diet' of some sort, I was always a lot bigger than my peers at school and my sister who is about the same height as me (5' 4") was always about a stone lighter than me even at my lightest of 9st 4lbs. Even then I thought I was fat but i think that was a lot to do with my parents who are very hung up about weight. I think this has had a long term effect on me and food was something I could control.
I don't think I have ever been as apprenhensive of something as I have been with starting this final attempt, I guess it is the unknown, having dieted for years losing weight after christmas before holidays, then gaining on holidays and losing again ready for christmas, i seem to have been the same weight for years. The thought of not eating anything is quite scary but I think this is the only way for me to beat my obsession with food.
I am really looking forward to actually starting at the meetings-it's a shame it's not sooner. I'm due to pop in to my counsellor on Saturday for a bit of support and to see how much I have lost!
Found it really difficult to decide which food packs to choose when presented with the list yesterday - but decided to try a few of each. So far today I have had a strawberry shake, mushroom soup and thai chilli soup, really enjoyed the strawberry shake and the thai chilli soup - not so keen on the mushroom though.
I'm going to buy a better hand blender than the cheap option I bought years ago, got splattered by my soup this evening - I need one with its own cup/jug. Only time I felt really hungry was when I got home from work, but I was later than usual, I made my soup as soon as I got in as no one else in for dinner. My middle daughter then came home from the gym and cooked herself fishcake and chips, which smelt devine.
I'm almost there with the water about 1/2 litre to go - I've found it better to drink the water at room temperature maybe because its so cold and miserable outside. So far so good, I'm feeling really positive and think waffling away on here is going to help, I've told lots of people what I am doing and they are all being really supportive, most people are really curious about the diet but I guess they migh become bored with it after my constant talking about it.
The more I have talked about the diet the more people I have found who have done LL and been very succesful so here's to the start of one more success!!
Matthew is due back from his Taekwondo class any minute so need to stick his dinner in the oven and make my last shake - think I might have a hot chocolate one. Oh yes and finish my water!!!!!
