Where has the time gone - As mentioned in my last post have really struggled with updating on here but have know been out and treated myself to a laptop so no excuses anymore.
My class has been messed about a bit we seemed to have new people starting right up to week 5, I think this was because our class was so small - 4 at the start and then one couldn't carry on after a couple of weeks so down to 3 which didn't give much interaction in the classes. So although I have been doing the packs for 74 days I'm not sure when foundation will actually end for me. Last week we were doing the tasks for week 7 which seems to have gone wrong somewhere cos it should have been week 9 by my calculation - the class started on 12 June. I don't mind because having had two weeks holiday I only seem to have missed one lot of tasks from the green book and I'm trying to catch up ready for Tuesday. When I first started my plan was to follow foundation and then go straight into management regardless of how much I had left to lose, and lose the last by more conventional dieting methods but I think my thoughts on this have changed reading lots of threads on minimins.com and blogs on here and my recent experiences. I have just returned from 2 weeks holiday in France where I had a fantastic holiday but I did break abstinence. The first week was not too much of a problem I was just enjoying having the odd taste of things but keeping to the shakes and bars during the day and having a small salad with lowfat protein for my evening meal. I did have an Ice Cream one dya but I didn't have my shake and when I put on a pair of trousers to go out at the end of the first week they actually felt looser than the last time I had worn them. I think it helped that we were doing a lot of walking to the beach which involved getting over a huge sand dune (if anyone knows SW France they will know that this no easy task) and cycling every other day. One day we went for a ride using some of the cycle routes through the Landes Forest and ended up cycling 21 miles round trip. In the 2nd week however I felt less in control and seemed to be more influenced by what other people were eating and started eating at lunch time and in the evening and this usually involved bread or crackers, small amounts of cheese, the lovely french cured hams etc etc. I even succombed to croissants for breakfast on a couple of days. I don't know what went wrong and what dissappointed me the most about it was that I didn't really enjoy the things I was eating but this didn't seem to stop me. We got back late last Saturday evening and I had decided as it was one of my daughters birthday on the sunday and she had been house and cat sitting for us while we were on holiday that we would take her and her friend out for lunch and this would be my last meal and back on the packs Monday morning. This was fine had a lovely salad and lots of sparkling water, it was quite late in the afternoon so didn't need anythng else to eat later. Monday morning arrived and straight back into normal routine of taking 2 packs to work, didn't find it too difficult getting back on the packs, I wsan't particularly hungry and found the water quite easy upto 5 litres each day. At weigh in on Tuesday I had gained 4 lbs which I wasn't too upset about but I think my actual gain was nearer to 7 lbs when I weighed at home on Sunday. What I have found really dificult was to stop picking at things and towards the end of the week actually eating whole things. This was really confusing as I wasn't hungry, not particularly stressed but cross with myself for not being able to do things how I had before my holiday. I had found the whole thing really easy and that was part of my reason for deciding to eat on holiday because i thought i would be ok when i got back. After a particualrly bad day on friday when I ate a cinnamon cake a whole bag of wine gums and a cold sausage I decided to post a thread on minimins.com (back on track is my name on there) to see if anyone could give me any advice the replys were really supportive and I don't know if it was just actually writing down what I had done and therefore actually admitting it or what it was but yesterday was a completely different sort of day refocused and only had my 4 packs and about 5 litres of water and I am feeling really pleased with myself although as I write this my tummy is growling at me, I think I might have to get up and have a shake (this laptop is brilliant as hubby lays next to me sleeping I can update to my hearts content without getting moaned at for spending too much time on computer). My weight is starting to drop off and I am a bit lighter than my preholiday weight so hopefully by tuesday will show a good loss and be back in ketosis.
My plan know is to carry on in development when the time comes and lose all my weight and then do management as I don't think I am ready to do things on my own, maybe this might change again as I get back into foundation who knows! This is someting I have noticed from other peoples blogs and postings that they keep changing their minds the closer to target they get.
I think I have rambled on enough for now hope to have your comments.
Bye for now.
Anita x
1 comment:
Good to have you back online Anita. I'm sure posting helps and certainly admitting to the eating seems to make you more aware of it and more accountable somehow.
It's a common experience trying to get back on track after a holiday when you've eaten.
I didn't seem to have the problem initially after Canada, was straight into it but a couple of weeks later, the picking was back and since then I've been alternating good weeks with bad! Still, it can be done and you can regain a measure of control and it's worth it!
Keep trying and keep posting and we'll all support you as much as possible.
Good luck!
Lesley x
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